I called the phone number on the notice about the notice for a hearing. It takes 10 weeks before the hearing notice goes out! At least I still have seven more weeks at this point and I can find a job by then. And I still need to call the lawyer.
I did get up before 1 this afternoon surprisingly but still had to take a nap. I also ended up with possible food poisoning but it also could have been my lactose intolerance acting up. Oh well.
Right now I’m waiting on parts of my dinner to defrost: salmon with potato and onion pierogies.
I do know that when I go back to school to get my masters that I want to focus on gender and perceived gender roles in fundamentalist Christianity along with rape and purity culture largely because all of those have become so pervasive in our American culture today. You can’t talk about women or being a woman without bringing gender roles, perceived value of those roles, sexuality, and physical bodies into the discussion. Plus God and His supposed rules (usually defined by abusive human males and enforced by human males and females as works that “please” God as they define Him).
Unfortunately, too many women have been falsely manipulated into believing and buying into a bill of goods that denies them a voice in the discussion. Their voices need to be heard not silenced. My voice needs to be heard. I don’t have to shout or do outrageous things to be heard and seen. I have to be me and keep speaking persistently even when I’m being told to shut up.
I understand a lot of women find this intimidating and frightening. I know I do because of my abuse but I also know that that fear is hurting me and others. I can speak out here and can do so in a way that is respectful and beneficial to not just me but to others as well.
But the culture and the society around us be it secular or Christian or Catholic all bombard women with so many expectations and rules and judgments that we get confused or hurt or oppressed and abused or just drop out all together. We all want to be individual women without having to concern ourselves with other peoples’ opinions. How each of us do that is going to be unique to each individual woman. Other peoples opinions do not define us.