And, yes, I lost my benefits. I can appeal the decision though it probably won’t make a difference. I knew this would happen even though I wanted to keep my benefits but evil security company always gets what they want.
Now I really have to find a job, any job soon. I did it to myself. This was all my fault. I hate myself right now. I don’t want to have to borrow money from my parents.
Three hours later
Yes, I had to take a break from writing this since I was in tears, crying, and a bad head space.
I am appealing the decision. It may not do any good but it is my right to appeal and so I’m going to appeal. I believe at this point that I don’t have to pay the benefits I have received back but won’t know for sure until I receive something telling me otherwise.
While I had decided not to sue, I’m entertaining the idea right now. Will it do any good? Probably not but I won’t know until I talk to a lawyer. I still may not sue and talking to a lawyer doesn’t cost anything. But it’s something to think about. I just need to talk to someone about all this who want involved in anyway in all this garbage. I need a third party perspective.
I are the leftovers from Sunday. Not very good as leftovers. At least they’re out of the fridge. Cleaned a few others things out as well.
Tomorrow, I intend to go to the library and apply for those jobs I found. Probably try a few retail places as well. I need something. If I have to work multiple jobs, I will. I’m not worrying about the while stupid health insurance right now. I can live without for now.
I should also walk more. If I call it exercise, I won’t do it but a walk and especially since there are still trees with their leaves I can look at is much easier. It’s all in the names you use.