Archive for January, 2014

It’s Tuesday!

Well, it is.  Or shortly, was.

Got stuff done today.  Turned in those pennies.  A whopping $5.28.  But hey, money to pay bills.  And I needed it because the money my parents gave me ended up short just in paying bills.  I have no money for groceries but I can pay bills.  I know I could use the money and not pay bills but I’ve always put bills first and me last.  I don’t see that changing any time soon.

Did get the application, resume, and cover letter printed off at the library.  Glad I got that done.  And the library upped the time you’re allowed on their computers from one hour to two.  The lead I had didn’t pan out.  It basically would be working uniformed security again and I had partly filled out the online application when I decided I was never putting myself in that kind of work ever again.  I don’t like uniforms, can’t stand wearing them, so why force myself to wear them if I don’t have to or want to.  And I don’t want to.  I refuse to go through or be subjected to the same garbage evil security company put me through even if this company is different.  I’m not going to open myself up to being treated like that again.

Creepy neighbor has removed himself from the property for awhile.  I don’t know if it is truly permanent and I can’t go into details but he’s currently not a problem.

And it’s finally raining again.  And I deliberately went walking out in it.  I didn’t need to drive.  I’ve worked in much, much worse and this was not that bad.  And I needed the exercise.  It finally felt like a proper Oregon winter day.  It was nice.

Another day going to bed at a reasonable hour.  I know going out today helped and why I went out.  Hopefully, I can go back to a reasonable sleep schedule.

Well, I’m off to drink my tea and read some of the library books I have.  I checked out more even though I still have five to read and had renewed.  Libraries are awesome but dangerous places.  I almost always check out a book after going there.  There haven’t been many tome that I haven’t.


Six Years!

That’s how long I’ve been on WordPress with this blog.  I’ve changed and grown as has this blog.

Good things and bad things have been going on in my life.  My health issues you heard about yesterday so I’m not going to repeat.  I’m still struggling financially.  My emotional health has also taken a hit.  I still need a job.

But I have really good neighbors.  I am learning new stuff just by borrowing books from the library.  I can still bake awesome oatmeal chocolate chip cookies.  I have become addicted to tea, again.  And I blame my Secret Santa for my minor addiction to Trader Joe’s chai tea latte. 

Now if I just had money.  I’m doing my taxes sometime this week or next which should help in the funds department.  We’ll see.

Well, I’m off to shower and try to go to bed at a reasonable hour.  I stayed up all last night after I saw that it was 3am and still wasn’t tired.  I did clean up some things in my living room at 4am and found a while lot of pennies that should go to the bank.  I’m not a penny hoarder, I swear.  And I rarely use cash so it’s funny I have so many pennies. 

So stuff to do tomorrow.  And the rain is finally back.  Yay!  Yes, I like they rain.

Rumbly in …

Well, I probably really shouldn’t quote Winnie the Pooh because my digestive problems do not indicate a hunger for honey.

Woke up before my alarm went off this morning in pain.  My digestive system decided to revolt again.  So I put the heating pad on my front and tried not to curl up too much since that made things worse.  I also tried not to move because I really wasn’t in the mood to revisit the contents of my stomach.  So going to Mass today was a no go.

I’m still not entirely sure what set it off and why the pain I felt was different.  Right now I’m still have muscle soreness though I managed to avoid a serious round in the bathroom.  I also managed some safe foods yet even they might not be so safe but eating is something I’m leery of right now.  Food is a major turn off.  The soreness doesn’t help either.

So more foods on my can’t eat list.  I’m can narrow down my issues to either IBS or celiac disease.  At this point, treatment is the same:avoiding the foods that trigger a reaction. 

Oh well, hopefully tomorrow will be better.  I have an application and resume I really need to send out and a new possible job lead.

Party Like It’s My Birthday

Well, it is.  Another year older.  Meh.

Went out to lunch with a friend.  Had planned on going out for dinner but decided to grab pizza and stay in.  I’m happy.

I did see a purse I wanted at Charming Charlies but didn’t get it.  It’s a want, not a need.  I did get a nice dress suit jacket at Wal-mart for $9.  Sweet deal, it looks incredible on me, and the whole solid black look I had going on was just awesome.  A good pair of boots and I’d be totally kick-ass.

So all in all a pretty good day.  Now if the weather would make up its mind things would be better.

Being Against Gay Marriage Doesn’t Make You a Homophobe – Atlantic Mobile

The author makes a good point especially now words like homophobe and hate get thrown around especially when some one doesn’t tow the party line of “gay should be celebrated and worshipped and anyone who disagrees or doesn’t comply or isn’t gay must automatically hate gays and so much be called names and shouted down.”

As someone who is against same sex marriage and civil unions, my support of a marriage as defined between one man and woman for the rest of their natural life into natural death comes front understanding of what marriage is and how it is lived determined how civilization continued.

I don’t hate gays or lesbians or transgendered or transsexual people.  They are made in the image and likeness of God, just like me.  Their sexuality is a part of them but it is not all of them, as they have bought into.  Their sexual acts are the problem.  They are not.  They aren’t anymore evil or horrible or depraved than I am.  They do have a very heavy burden/cross to bear but they’ve aren’t automatically condemned to Hell just for existing.

People choose to go to Hell by committing persistent and unrepentant mortal sin along with persistent and unrepentant persistence in heresy.  And yet, God is merciful and wants to forgive.  Unfortunately, too many have come into  contact with a God like that in Jonathan Edwards “A Sinner in the Hands of an Angry God”  where “God” is a tyrant who waits in glee to torture and destroy human beings.  They come into contact or are exposed to a Calvinist “God” who delights in sending people to Hell and has no love or mercy or forgiveness.  This “God” exists in too many churches, even among Catholics who should know better. 

God is not a tyrant or a terrorist or a merciless misery.  God is love and yet we don’t know or can’t feel it or don’t believe it because too many of us were just not loved or shown loved or were just outright abused.  And worse, God was used to abuse us.  We were best over the head to obey or comply or not do this or must do that otherwise God sends little girls like you to Hell.  Something I am way to familiar with.

Our churches, our society, our world has no idea what love truly is let alone that God is love.  This is something I struggle with.  Someone who suffers from same sex attraction has a worse time understanding that you can be loved and yet have what you perceive as freedoms and rights seen as sins.  Love is free but it is not license.  Just because you “love” someone does not mean it is “right” or that your “love” should be protected.

Gay marriage has opened the way for polygamy to become legal.  We’ve already seen one court case in Utah pace the way so it would be very long until it reaches the federal court, the Supreme Court and they’ll decide to allow it.  Then we have just slid down the slippery slope into child marriage (which fundamentalist and homeschoolers already advocate) and then legalizing pedophilia.  People think it won’t happen but it will. 

This and That

Just random stuff.

I do have a post on Windows and Microsoft in the works.  I did little research and found more fails.  Ah, the entertainment.  I also intend to poke fun at a couple of spam I received from the same person referring spam victims to TWO different “lawyers” all that cost of several thousand dollars.  It was hilarious to me.

So my Cubies are getting a mascot.  I’m honestly indifferent to it.  I just want my team to make it to the playoffs this year.  I know, I know, wishful thinking but I can hope.

We had a minor power outage this morning for about 45 minutes.  Of course it was at 5:35 this morning so it got dark.  I’m prepared and just grabbed the flashlight I had on my coffee table.  Yes, I was up all night trying to fix my sleep schedule which is still out of whack.

I have found a job that I really need to apply to.  Plus, it fits my desire to help people.  All I need to do is full out the application and send it along with my resume and cover letter.  I don’t know the deadline but I’m giving myself until this Friday.

Reading lots of books, largely computer books.  Still working on the programming book though I’m almost finished with that one.  Working on a book about networking and started on one about Google, data and information security, and how using computers, hardware, software, applications, networks, Internet, etc. allow a lot more of our personal data out there for people to find, even companies like Google, who can use it for good or ill and how we interact in all this, sharing data  and how to protect ourselves.  I really should update my reading lists at the top here to list some books I’ve read that I think are relevant and important.

And Then…?

Well, not much really.  I had planned on going to the library again today to work on sending out cover letters and resumes but then my digestive system decided to revolt.  At least this time I managed to knock out the pain with the heating pad. I didn’t want to spend an hour and a half in the bathroom in pain at the level I had last time my digestive system revolted.  This time no pain and more reading on beginning programming.

Yes, I read in the bathroom.  It’s easy to focus and I needed something to do besides the stuff you do in a bathroom.  So I read.  I read the only Westerns that I’ll read in the bathroom.  Read through other fiction.  This is the first time reading non-fiction.  But good reading.  Even if the book was written in 1998.  Yes. 1998.

I’m not just learning, I’m laughing.  Windows 98 had just come out when this book was written and while the book mentions it, it largely refers to Windows 95.  Yes.  That prehistoric dinosaur.  At least he hasn’t mentioned Windows 3.1 which was the predececer (sp?) to 95.  I so need to write a post on Windows and it’s iterations mostly in its matter of failyness.  And I know that’s not a word but Windows had several fails.  Some of them spectacular.  And yes, I do like Windows and can still mock it.

I also baked scones today.  I did it from a mix so it was very easy. 

I also have an idea for a series of posts on marriage, the evangelical fundamentalist gender gospel preach about (a whole lot that isn’t in the Bible at all and is made up by certain evangelical preachers and Neo-Cal preachers to push their own agenda and hurting people in the process all in the name of Jesus, who also rarely, if ever gets mentioned) and how more and more are buying this bill of goods (even Catholics) all to be “good Christians.” 

It’s interesting to read through the Catechism because I find no sign of these false beliefs that women must only be wives and mothers and stay at home and never work and always be subservient and under the authority of a man. 

Complementerianism is this false ideology that women are inferior and must be kept this way due to their gender.  Women, who are infantilized in this suppressive culture, must learn only to keep house, have lots of babies, must not be well educated, must not work, must always obey men especially fathers and husbands, and must not recognize or even consider that they have value and worth, especially not outside of being married to a man. 

Women and their existence are defined in their relationship to men.  If they aren’t married, then they don’t exist. Men define womens’ existence and they only exist if they say so.  Women aren’t really human to these nuts.  They’re just breeders and maids and prostitutes and cooks and manual labor. 

This false ideology has become pervasive in evangelical culture so much so that many women are marginalized and even shamed if they don’t follow this heresy.  Some are falsely accused, put under “church discipline”, excommunicated, and then
forced to leave and lose church, family, and friends who still adhere and even believe to this heresy.  Just read the Wartburg Watch, a blog dedicated to exposing this kind of garbage and the damage it has done to people.

I haven’t even gotten into how these heresies feed into child sexual abuse and how it puts all the blame on the victim and how the proprietors cover up and excuse this abuse all to protect their little fiefdoms and beliefs and ideologies.

What’s worse is that there are many women who buy this garbage and then force it on other women.  And if these women don’t swallow this garbage then the “true believers” do everything to get these women to submit and obey even going to the point to humiliate and shame them into conforming.  And if they still don’t swallow, swallowed but are now vomiting it back up into the toilet where it belongs then the “true believers” will spread lies and even convince the church to “discipline” if not out and out kick people out. 

It’s conform or die.  Actually, it’s more conform and you WILL die a very slow and painful death.  Don’t conform or confirm these heresies and you’ll be much better off.

And honestly, let’s get terms straight people.  Gender refers to language and is used when denoting forms, i.e. masculine and feminine in Spanish.  Sex refers to make and female, man and women and are biological in nature.  There are only two sexes.  Gender has two forms, sometimes there depending on the language (German) or even almost none (English mostly has none).

I just hate people hurting other people and using God to do it.  That’s why I call this garbage heresy because it’s false beliefs and they are deliberately used to hurt people in the name of God.


Type this later, if I remember.

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