A Letter Myself

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Dear Me,

It’s okay to feel bad.  To hate that you were spanked.  To hate that you were abused.  To cry.

It’s okay to say hitting a child is wrong.  It’s okay to say spanking is indeed hitting.  It’s okay to say that children have rights.

It’s okay to mourn the child you didn’t get to be.  It’s okay to mourn the mother you wanted but didn’t have.  It’s okay to mourn the father you wanted but didn’t have.  It’s okay to mourn the family you wished loved you instead of hated you or at least ignored you.

It’s okay that you aren’t perfect.  It’s okay that you struggle with your faith.  It’s okay that you actually accept Church teaching instead of rejecting it for your own interpretation.

It’s okay to be alone.  It’s okay not to like people.  It’s okay if you don’t like a certain friend and no longer want to hang out with that person. 

You are not stupid.  You are not ugly.  You don’t deserve hate.  You can be loved.  You are not worthless.  You are not useless. 

It’s not your fault people chose to hurt you.  It’s not your fault you were abused.  It’s not your fault people still treat you badly.  It’s not your fault other people mess up their lives.  It’s not your fault your mother raged at you and belittled you and insulted you.  It’s not your fault your mother played favorites.  It’s not your fault certain individuals chose to sin.

You are not a failure.  Your mother is a liar.  Your friend is liar.  You are not a liar.  God is not a liar.

You’re being an introvert is a good thing.  Being a book need is a good thing.  Being responsible is a good thing.  Being cautious and safe are good things.

It’s okay to have a bad day.  It’s okay to feel.  It’s okay not to want to be super excited or an extrovert or happy.  You are an introvert who feels the whole range of emotions deeply.  No one controls your feelings or what you feel but you.

You are you and no one else.  Everyone else can take a long hike off a short pier.

ME

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