I am sitting in the parking lot at church, still in tears and trying not to have a panic attack. I tried going to Mass. Sat in the pew but started crying, hard crying that hurts my head crying. I have myself until 20 after (Mass started at 5:30) to pull myself together. I just couldn’t so I walked out of church and still 30 minutes later can’t stop crying. I haven’t had thus happen to me in a long time at least this type of crying and near panic attack at Mass.
So yeah, not going to Mass today. I’m still trying to pull myself together so I can drive home. This sucks.