So here it is, nearly 24 hours later. I didn’t get to Mass at all last night. It was about 6 before my crying stopped enough and I knew that going to the last half of Mass wouldn’t cut it. And I was still crying and had run out of tissues. So I left and went to the grocery store. Sat in the parking lot there for about 10-15 minutes before I went in. Did a little grocery shopping but was still working hard to keep the tears in. Head still hurt but couldn’t take anything since I had drunk all my water I had with me. Went home.
I went to bed early hoping to catch up on sleep. That didn’t work. So,my sleep schedule is messed up again and I’m still on the verge of tears.
I still have no idea what triggered the crying but at least I didn’t have a panic attack.
I am, however, giving myself permission to take it easy this Lent. I’ll be following Church rules for fasting and abstinence, as usual.
I’m not going completely meat free like I usually do. I will get to eat meat Sun. – Tues. while the rest of the week is vegetarian. I figured that would be a good compromise. And next week will be completely meat free but only because Ash Wednesday and Friday are so close so I figured it would be easier to go the whole week instead of worrying which day it was. I also plan on adding something, some sort of reading or prayer. I want to start something I can continue after Lent.