As soon as I feel lime I’ve got a grasp on social interaction and niceties, the rules change and I’m left learning a whole new way of doing things. I know I’ve always been socially inept but at least I’ve been able to fake it. Anymore I can’t even do that.
I took out the trash a while ago and saw my downstairs neighbor had one of her rabbits out in the grass in front of her apartment. So I petted the rabbit and started to go back to my apartment. Then I heard my neighbor raisin her voice and I went back to her front door. She asked what I was up to and told her I was taking out the trash when I saw her one rabbit out. Then I mentioned she must be having a bad night because she had been yelling. She said she was fine and that she and her kids were getting ready to watch a movie. I told them to have fun and went back to my apartment. I felt like an idiot. I should have just left after petting the rabbit. I felt like I said stupid things and for wanting to talk to my neighbor. I have to remember that most people don’t want to talk to me.
I did a few things that I needed to get done and my rabbit decided to misbehave a little bit. I am now in tears. Everything was okay and now it’s not again.
I started back on antidepressants on June 15th. I take Welbutrin in the morning and Celexa at night. I’ve definitely have had side effects but don’t seem to have any impact yet.